Blue Rose
Chapter 9

Seras looked up seeing Walters dimmed eyes upon her, she moved to touch his face softly, lightly pacing a kiss up his lips, “Please Walter, don’t speak.”

“Seras...” He said barely making audible, “I wish to tell you something, before...” She hushed him softly as she moved onto the bed taking him into her arms, holding him close to her as she looked to him.

Hold onto me love
You know I can't stay long

“Seras, I love you so much...I’m so sorry it must end so quickly like this...” he whispered as she felt himself within her arms.

All I wanted to say was I love you and I'm not afraid
Can you hear me?
Can you feel me in your arms?

He took in a sharp breath, as he looked up to her, he reached his hand up to hers, “I always cared about you Seras, the moment you...first arrived...”

Holding my last breath
safe inside myself
Are all my thoughts of you
sweet-raptured light
it ends here tonight

He smiled weakly looking to the window, “But mostly I knew of my feelings of you that one winter day 2 months ago...do you remember?”

She smiled, sniffling, “I do...”

“I never had so much fun...playing snowball...in the forest, in front of that tree”

I'll miss the winter
A world of fragile things
Look for me in the white forest
Hiding in a hollow tree (Come find me)

She sobbed her tears slowly fall upon his cheeks; she reached to wipe them from his skin, which slowly grew cold, once so warm to her touch.

I know you hear me
I can taste it in your tears

Holding my last breath
safe inside myself
are all my thoughts of you
sweet raptured light
it ends here tonight

“Walter, this is unreal to me, yes I had people who I cared for die, but this...oh god Walter do leave me!” She closed her eyes as she held him closer to her.

Closing your eyes to disappear
You pray your dreams will leave you here
But still you wake and know the truth
No one's there

“Seras...I love you...I’ll...always be by your side...my blue rose...” His eyes slowly closed as his voiced started to fade from her ears.

Say goodnight
Don't be afraid
Calling me Calling me as you fade to black...

“Walter? Walter??” She looked to him as she laid still in her arms, her tears streamed down her cheek as he gripped him closer, “Walter please don’t leave me, please, you’re my angel Walter please stay here with me...! WALTER!!”

Her voice echoed all the way to Integra office where she sat against her desk upon the floor. After hearing the yell she knew right away, the tears fell from her eyes, her arms hugged her legs as she moved closer to the desk, sobbing uncontrollably.

“Integra... Where are you Integra?” Walter voice echoed, Integra looked up slowly with her blurry eyes seeing Walter peeking his head in the office, he looked a bit younger that he did, “Walter?”

“Ah, there you are!” He smiled, as she saw a much younger Integra run across the room from behind the desk, she looked to be about 5 years old. Walter chased the laughing Integra around the room.

“You can’t catch me, Walter, nah, nah!” The two continued their game of tag until Walter finally snatched her up; she threw a fit of giggle as she hugged him.

“I got you!” He said victorious.

“You win, Walter!” She smiled to him; “I guess I have to have a bath now, huh?”

“Yes, your nanny wishes it.”

“Ok...” She smiled up to him as he started to take her from the office, “You’re my best friend, Walter...forever and ever we’ll be friends right??”

“Forever, ever, and ever!” He chuckled, slowly fading from the room; Integra only watched this flashback with the tears, dwelling within her eyes.

“Forever...”

2 Days later a service was held at the cathedral in London, people in service to Hellsing showed, along with the Protestant knight members, and living, remaining friends of Walters, which was few to count. Integra and Seras sat in the front next to each other looking over his casket as it laid before the alter, candles made arch above as dozens upon dozens of blue roses laid around to his casket, Seras made sure of this, and the Hellsing banner laid on top. The priest sang out a prayer as he spread the incense around the coffin from the urn he swung about slowly.

Once the priest was done, he asked if Integra would come up and speak as she requested earlier before the service. Integra slowly stood, she was in a all black suit, nothing was white, and she didn’t even wear her gloves.

She looked over Walter casket quietly before she turned to the people present, “Here lies before a true soldier of Hellsing...A man who served 3 generations of our noble family. From 14, to 70 he served loyally and bravely. Even retired he remained with us...” She looked around slowly, “I saw Walter more than a butler, he was my friend...my only friend...” She sniffled lightly. Seras slowly looked up to Integra, her eyes tearful listening.

“Even since I was little, he’s always been there for me...if my father couldn’t read to me, Walter would if he was home. I would wait for him when he returned from missions, only to greet him warmly...cause he didn’t have anyone to greet him...not like how my father did...” He voice started to crack a bit as she spoke, her tears started to form again.

“He always start my day with my breakfast and a daily report ready on the table, then he would ask me, “Did you sleep well, Sir Integra?” and I would respond, “Yes, what about you, Walter, sleep well?” and he would always smile and respond, “I slept well, knowing in the morning I’ll be serving you.” But now, I can never ask him that question...cause he will never wake up...” She choked, her hand moved to her mouth, trying to regain herself.

“I don’t know what to do anymore now that he’s gone...no one can replace what great help he’s been to me...oh God, no one can!” She sobbed, “His smile always warmed my heart when it was cold...my heart is still cold, and I will never see his smile again....”

He looked to his coffin again, tears running down her cheeks, “Rest thee Angel of Death! Rest thee! Heaven calls for you again! Spread your wings and return to God!” She slowly fell to her knees, the priest moved kneeling down next to her placing his hand upon her shoulder. “You belong to heaven now...rest thee....” She looked down, her hand covering her face; the priest comforted her, as he looked up to the people.

“Amen...” the priest softly added.

“Amen...” they repeated, bowing their head in silence.

After the service they took Walter remains to the cemetery where the Hellsing family, members, and soldiers were buried. Welter had his own place where the ground hasn’t been raised yet. Awaiting was a tombstone with an angel looking over the grave with its wings spread out, upon it, along with the Hellsing insignia on the top before his name. Upon it, it said: “Here lies Walter. C Ddolnnez, Retainer of the Hellsing Family, whom served for 56 years, where he earned the name “Angel of Death”. A dear friend, and brave soldier of God. May he rest in peace. Amen.”.

He body was carried by the guard of Hellsing to his grave sight settled down lightly upon the crank as the priest sang one last prayer before they lowered his casket into the grave. Seras watched, her hand gripped the necklace up her neck as she held one of the roses from the bunch in the church.

“My angel...don’t leave me alone...”

“Your never alone Seras...Though I maybe gone, you still have your friends...please Seras watch Integra for me...”

“Walter...”

“I love you, Seras...Remember that, my blue rose...”

“...Walter...”

“Amen...” The priest ended as he tossed the handful of dirt into the grave, before giving the sing of the cross. He slowly turned, leaving the sight with a few others following behind with their heads down.

Integra stood there staring, before she felt the hands of Alucard upon her shoulder, she didn’t look to him, “Alucard...what am I to do now?”

“Life will be different now without, Walter...but you must cope, Master...”

“He was your friend, Alucard...and your telling me you’ll be fine knowing he won’t be around anymore, to upgrade you guns...?”

“No one can ever make guns like he did, but yes, he was my friend...but I learn to deal with death like this...so it doesn’t effect me...”

“Teach me then, Alucard...teach me to expect death....”

He grinned, “Not now...maybe later, , let get you can to the Manor...”

She nodded slowly then moved to the grave, taking the gold cross from her tie looking to it, “You gave this to me...I shall return it...rest well Walter...” She tossed it onto the grave stepping back before turning around heading back to the cars her head still down.

Alucard looked over to Seras, “Are you coming?”

She shook her head slowly, “No...I’ll stay a bit more...”

He nodded slowly then moved to the car getting in with Integra to ride with her. Seras glanced over her shoulder watching them leave then slowly turned back to the grave. He hand still upon the jewel rose. She tossed the rose onto his casket, her arm moved to wrap around her stomach holding herself as she slowly knelt down, the tears feel from her eyes as the rain droplets fell from the gloomy skies. Love was so strange to her, to make her feel the way she did, to watch him die killed her inside, only leaving her and her dreams, and the warmth within her that he left behind...

My Last Breath - by Evanesence